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Helll naw i ain’t mad at ya. I was in the wrong mind state to begin with, I shouldve def not gone out tonight especially with heavy emotions on my mind. I have too many things to deal with, tonight doesn’t even compare to the rest of the problems I have to deal with. And I was supposed to get a phone call which I really needed because I just needed someone to talk too. Im taking off my contacts, staring straight in the mirror, and I kinda just told myself that its time to grow up. Im about to lose the second father figure of my life, so apparently its on my shoulders. Ready or not, I’m supposed to deal with this. Just gotta play the cards youre dealt, and just shut up and play. Few bluffs here and there, but always put yourself in a position to win. I’ll obliged to life’s detour. This is definitely not where I want to be, but somehow I drove myself into this dead end, and now I am mentally depressed and unprepared for this current venture. I think I need to slow down. I’m definitely moving faster than I should. To put it in the only real terms I know, which is basketball, I’m the point guard, and I need to slow this pace down. Fast breaks are only good when I have the advantage, something my coach taught me, and something I need to apply to life it seems. #aintnothinglike family. Nothing.

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